It is something that lives with you. It is the not being able to speak. The nervous of trying to say something but afraid of the backlash or what someone is going to say. It is the panic attacks, the seen the unseen. It's the nervously shaking when things don't go as plan. The what ifs the constant worrying how something will go. It's the over reacting, the involuntary movements and shaking.
The pacing back and forth. The reinsurance that things are okay, that no one is mad. Its the talking in public but getting sweaty hands all while just trying to order food or just talking to someone you do not know.
Being bullied in my childhood has caused some of this but that is not the major factors. Being afraid of speaking out due to your parent always has the say and the fear that you get when you do something they disapprove up and not sure how they are going to handle it.
A therapist once told me sour candy is the way to go. Sour candy calms the nervous system allowing your body to relax in which its kind of like when you suffer a traumatic event, they tell you to play Tetris so that you mind does not focus on what happened or what is happening, it rerouted to you playing a complex game so now you focus on that instead.
I use Stress relief tablets that helps out a lot and this allows me to be calm and not worry and it does not allow me to overreact.
I also keep gum on me and chew that so I focus on that instead of things around me.
Pretty much anything to keep your mind focus and not allowing you to dart off topic or start panicking helps. There are also anxiety rings you can get which also works good. You can turn them and fidget with them which are cool!
