Jealousy and Envy Thinking and Mindset

 Jealousy and Envy are the two most blockers in the world. Being jealous of something that a person has or can get can end up allowing you to miss something that you were suppose to have.

 Being angry or upset because a person has something will not allow you to grow and get what you need. You never know what a person has went through nor their journey or the things they had to go through to get where they are today. 

Life is hard and life always will knock you down to the point you feel like giving up and not go anymore and when you start looking around, you can start to notice that people have different things.

 A lot of people are getting the things you dreamed of and it feels like you are never going to get it and you keep working hard towards it and all kinds of things starts happening and you feel like you are loosing grip and the more you look around and the more you see someone else getting something new or someone else getting things before you and it starts to make you feel like there is no reason to keep going and you want to give up and you become mad, jealous and envy them because of where they are or what they have.

 Yes, this feeling happens to a lot of people but you are not suppose to feel this way because it can end up potentially blocking your blessing and stop you from focusing and keep going on to where you are suppose to be. 

If you give up, then you will end up having to restart the process and not everything is going to come to you as quick as you want them. It is going to take time and it has to be the right time for you to get it. It is going to take a lot of hard work and dedication for you to get to where you want to be in life and giving up is never an option. You may have to stop and take breaks and change your game plan but eventually, it is all going to work out. 

You are also going to have to change your thinking and stop being negative towards everyone and everything. It is all a mindset and once you change it, things will start to get better.

It Amazes me : The new me

It amazes me at how a person believes they can do or say anything about you and when had enough, you decide to cut all contact and delete them and then when they try to come back, they expect you to still be there and they can still treat you all kinds of ways. 

See the old me would allow them to come back thinking that they did not mean to do it. The old me would allow them to continue to walk on me like a door mat but the new me does not allow it. I know my worth and my importance. I do not need anyone in my life that will cause me to question myself.

Especially if you throw off on me and talk about me and then block my numbers and expect me to be there and accept your friend request on Xbox when you deleted me because I asked you a question which is better S or X. 

It is funny how in todays world, you expect people to be there when you are bored and lonely and want people to play with you because "You do not like to play with randoms." but you tend to talk all kinds of bad things and make it seem like you're all big and bad when you are just a random dude that tries to be cool in his 40's and do nothing but drink, smoke weed and barely pay your child support because you are to busy balling and trying to trap people with your daughter because you are trying to find her a mom. 

The old me would go back trying to help this situation but it is hard to help someone who is still trying to live in their teenage years and two decades ago. 

The new me is telling me this is not my battle and you cannot help everyone especially someone who is just going to mooch off of you and pretty much take everything you have just because they have nothing for themselves but yet want you to feel bad. 

The new me has been through the riddles and tricks for far to long and has decided even though they knocked on that door, to not answer it. I learned not to answer all doors that are knocked on because I refuse to go down that old road or path.

 I refuse to allow old access and or connections that are just going to belittle me and talk about me and be jealous. The old me would feel bad but the new me is pushing it off and not opening up so easily. If they were meant to be in my life, first off they would not do what they did and secondly, the would still be here. 

I am finally healing and moving on past the things that use to hurt me or keep me. I am moving past trying to help people that want to use you because they have nothing better to do. 

Who is for you? Who is against you?

 You can tell who is for you and who is against you. You can tell the motives of a person and how they are. Read the energy level from the person. 

Look at their motives. Who is for you, who is against you.

 When you have good news and you tell them do they squish and roll up their face because it isn't happening to you or are they happy for you? 

Are they a downer and always complaining and never getting anywhere? 

Do you tell them your plans and they doubt you saying you will never make it?

Watch those who you tell your plans to because not everyone is for you. Some people will only want to hear ideas so either they can steal them or doubt you or talk you out of it. 

These kinds of people will not allow you to grow and you need to get rid of them or you will end up missing out on your chance because of jealousy or they don't want you to go. 

Replant yourself into a bigger pot, water yourself and snip off the dead root and stems and grow.

Remove yourself from the negativity. 

 You can do it. If it fails, then try again sometimes it will take more than once to get it right.