No longer happy...

 I am no longer happy in my life. I am no longer happy nor excited with the things that use to excite me and make me happy.

I cannot even fake it like I am anymore. I'm so exhausted and stressed that I'm tired. I have been looking for jobs trying to do everything I can from blogging, affiliate marketing and so much more.

 I exhausted myself helping others that I no longer want to help anyone. I no longer sleep at night because all the anxiety that I feel happens the most when I try to lay down and rest. The thoughts are horrible, the panic attacks suck and the seizures are the worst.

I graduated college, a course that I pushed myself though to get a certificate that I have to take a big test for but if I complete the degree program I won't so I decided to go back to get the Bachelor degree hoping something comes from it.

I watch my dreams fall apart and never come true really. I thought I would own a home, have some land and possibly have a little farm but no it hasn't happened yet. I also wanted to travel around and visit places but no, that doesn't look like it is ever gonna happen.

We are in a three bedroom rental and there are 6 of us living in it. I'm not complaining about it as long as we have a roof over our head but I was promised we would move and never did. 

I'm just tired of the false promises that you gave me. I'm tired of you saying your going to do something and you don't at all. I'm tired of the back and forth. I'm tired of it all. 

I'm tired of the back and forth me explaining everything how I feel, what I feel and nothing gets done about it. I am tired of the yelling, I am tired of the arguments. I am tired of it all.. My mental health is no longer worth putting myself though this. 

Some how, I will change this. Some how I will change it all and become better and do better. 

You can make X amount of figures SCAM

 Running a blog is never easy. Sometimes it is hard to get traffic and so you have to promote it basically everywhere all while making sure your SEO is up to standers to be sure you are being seen and getting traffic all while using catchy titles and tags and labels.

Adsense doesn't always get approved sometimes you cannot make money on it so you have to find affiliate marketing links just to make a little.

The ugly truth is if your not getting views your not gonna get paid. Even if you are getting views does not mean your gonna get paid. People will say you can make so much from this and by doing this but it's not true. It's a scam and if you click on the links on their blog post they get paid and they are the ones giving you false hope by having you believe you can make so many figures by doing such and such but it's just click bate and a scam. I fell for it one to many times in hopes it's real but it's not. It's a get rich quick scheme people use to take advantage of people just so that they can get traffic to their own blogs.

 Also paying for traffic doesn't help. Don't use the paid sites to get views and traffic it makes them money and gives you bot views and no one wants that we want organic growth.

I have had my spicy review blog since 2018 and it has been ups and downs. It doesn't matter how many views you are getting. If they don't like it, they won't buy and it doesn't matter what it is. I have my side bars full of affiliate ads but they just sit there and linking the product in the post doesn't help either. 

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