Gift Giving

 

I've come to the painful realization that I've never truly treated myself to anything meaningful. All the generosity I extended was directed outwardly—video games, a laptop, and various gifts for friends. Strangely, neither the laptop nor the games I bestowed upon someone else ever saw any use.

I'm left wondering what it's like to receive a gift simply because someone was thinking of me, rather than as reciprocation for the things I gave. As I reflect, I question the authenticity of those friendships. It seems they were more about what they could gain from me, as now, the once-frequent contact has dwindled, and they don't bother to check in on me.

With Christmas and my birthday looming, the silence amplifies. I brace myself for the absence of any thoughtful gesture, realizing that perhaps those connections were never genuine. It's a stark reality to accept, and the loneliness feels palpable as I confront the likelihood that my generosity was merely a means for others to exploit.

Christmas is coming

 Sometimes during the Christmas month, we are not sure what to get our significant other or spouse. We also often times are not sure what to get for family and honestly that is okay. 

I also know this is the time people are alone the most and don't celebrate it for reasons, so if you know someone who is like this, just go spend time with them and hang out. Don't let them be alone. Being alone for the holidays sucks and no one deserves to be alone. 

 This season is all about the thought that counts and anyone would be glad to receive anything that you get them. The season is also about giving and spend with one another and cherishing. 

I know sometimes people are not the best and family tend to be hateful or mean but one day they will regret it all and try to come back and if they do, let them. 

Try to see through it all and spend time with them and if you feel you cannot then don't. No reason to put yourself through this. I have a good heart so I always believe in second chances but sometimes it is best to just leave it alone rather than to be hurt. Trust me, I know. 

One day the people who done wrong will regret it all as they sit there and look back on it trying to figure out why no one visits them and why they ended up alone when it is there fault. 

But, I wish you all a Happy Holidays, Merry Christmas, Merry Xmas, Happy new years and I love you all!