Watch those around you

 People are so quick to judge you based off of anything and they fail to realize they are the ones that trigger you. They tell you all the things you want to hear and never do them. They will trigger you and uses you and make it seem like they are genuine but you will just be another person that they played. They do not really love you. They only want someone in their corner so they can prey off of you. They want to be able to have someone to play. 

They only tell you that to keep you around to pretend that they are not like the other that done you wrong when they truly are. They basically do things to make sure that they keep you on your toes and then when you figure it out and get tired of it, they will leave you just because. 

When you don't believe their lies that they told you along with the excuses and other things, then you become a problem for them and once you see through every single piece of excuse they gave then they get mad. They will try to use what you told them and your weaknesses against you. They will play your heart strings, tag you along and then get mad when you don't do what they want you to anymore. 

They will keep you around just because. Do not fall for the lies that they will tell you. They will try to break you down and build you the way they want to. They will force those around you to leave or for you to leave them and they will fight with you because of it. 

Anyone that is around you, they will say tried to break up the relationship. Anyone around you that can see how they really are and treat you they will blame them and try to isolate you and then when you call them out for everything and every lie they ever told they will coward away and then come back with something else just because they want to keep fighting with you for no reason at all. Then when you call it out they will become the victim and flip the script and make it seem like it was you and your crazy. 

Watch who you love, not everyone is truthful and loyal like they say. 

Same routines

 As a person who likes doing the same routines, certain routines get old. Such as begging for a person to do right, arguing and fighting with a person that supposedly loves you everyday and begging them to see what they are doing to you and trying to show them what they are doing to others and how what they are saying is not right or sound right because the part that they are saying basically is basically the opposite of  what they are saying.

It gets to a point you have to withdraw yourself, your love and care to basically save yourself from spiraling anymore further down. Loving a person takes a lot of work if they are not loving themselves. It takes a lot of work even more to lie about loving a person and or subjects around a person. 

Say a person claims that they don't talk to people because they are antisocial but then come up to say they talk to people randomly then to come up and say they do not talk to the person they claim and then lie and say oh yeah we talk so if you are lying about that then what else are you lying about. 

Trying to search through everything that was told and go through every part and think about it while watching how a person moves it gets old. You start to see a lot of holes in every story and everything that does not make sense. 

You can basically see where the story was either used on other to manipulate them or basically where it was fabricated again and again to basically make it work on others to get them to feel sorry for them or to make you want to stick with them and care because that is what they want you to believe. They will blame whoever including you for things that you did not due and then try to use it as leverage to win you and make you stay and do what they want you to do. 

They will become the victim and play victim while victim blaming you and make everything some how your fault. Do not fall for this it will become catastrophe and you cannot fix this. It only gets worst and you will end up getting hurt in the process and its not worth it.

Once you can see how the person is moving and repeating it gets old and you end up wanting something  new. Trust me, loving a toxic person and begging them to be a decent human and love you the way you need to be loved gets old, hell begging a person in general gets old. 

You end up cutting them off eventually and then you feel bad or they sweet talk you into a place that you don't want to be in again and again because the way they word their words and then everything falls apart as you try to fix it and then you end up getting hurt and shying away from them more and more until you get the courage to just up and leave because you realize its not what you want anymore and they are not the one you want to be with because of all the times they showed you what they are doing.

 They don't love you they are only using you.

It is time for something new and a new journey at that one.