Medicine of a tired spirit: Jealousy and Envy

 Jealousy and Envy are the two most blockers in the world. Being jealous of something that a person has or can get can end up allowing you to miss something that you were suppose to have.

 Being angry or upset because a person has something will not allow you to grow and get what you need. You never know what a person has went through nor their journey or the things they had to go through to get where they are today. 

Life is hard and life always will knock you down to the point you feel like giving up and not go anymore and when you start looking around, you can start to notice that people have different things.

 A lot of people are getting the things you dreamed of and it feels like you are never going to get it and you keep working hard towards it and all kinds of things starts happening and you feel like you are loosing grip and the more you look around and the more you see someone else getting something new or someone else getting things before you and it starts to make you feel like there is no reason to keep going and you want to give up and you become mad, jealous and envy them because of where they are or what they have.

 Yes, this feeling happens to a lot of people but you are not suppose to feel this way because it can end up potentially blocking your blessing and stop you from focusing and keep going on to where you are suppose to be. 

If you give up, then you will end up having to restart the process and not everything is going to come to you as quick as you want them. It is going to take time and it has to be the right time for you to get it. It is going to take a lot of hard work and dedication for you to get to where you want to be in life and giving up is never an option. You may have to stop and take breaks and change your game plan but eventually, it is all going to work out. 

You are also going to have to change your thinking and stop being negative towards everyone and everything. It is all a mindset and once you change it, things will start to get better.

Are you in a Toxic relationship?

 They only call you toxic when you find out the truth that they were hiding and lying about. When you have that gut feeling that something isn't right and they keep trying to tell you that it's not what it seems, you are overthinking, your insecure that it's all on you because you have trust issues from your past and it's causing you not to trust. 

What they don't know, is that the lies they fed you and made you try to believe is what your exes have pulled and you became wise from it. You observe everything around you and take notes of how they are doing and what they are doing. You start to see similarities and you realize they are doing everything your exes are doing just in a different way and pattern. 

You decide to break off but your heart hurts because you trusted them to be different. You gave them all your love, your time and care just for this to happen. 

You take a break for a while and decide to give them the benefit of the doubt thinking that it's not like that they were right that you were overthinking but then you realize it is a trap and you got tangled into their spiderweb and it is getting worst and worst nothing is going the way they say it would.

 They lied multiple times to cover up and then trying again to make you believe the lie they told that its not true that you're just making things up but this time, you seen it with your own two eyes and so you leave and never come back. 

Block their number, social media and go no contact but then there is going to be this thought of what ifs and it will make you want to reach out but DON'T DO IT! It only will set you up for trouble and to get hurt again.

Eventually the pain you feel will stop and you will find someone who is loyal and will accept everything you have been through and put you first for everything. You will find that special person to be there for you through it all and willing to go through everything with you no matter the good nor the bad they are there for it all. 

But until you find your person be sure to heal, and give yourself a lot of self love, self care and support yourself.