Affiliate marketing is not the best!

 Let me honest, affiliate marketing does not make anything. You have to actually really push yourself out there to get people to buy things and look at your stuff. Sometimes you will feel like it is going no where and you are at the wits of your ends trying to make ends meet

. Affiliate marketing is basically free advertisement without being paid.

 People can look at your stuff and decide to go to the website and buy it without using your links meaning you make nothing for it. Trust me, I have been an affiliate marketer for 5 years now and now, its like no one is buying, looking nor clicking. 

People will lie to you and tell you it is a quick way to make money it or you can make X amount of income with it. This is not lie but it can be. So do not get your hopes up thinking it is a quick route to make money because it is not. You have to work 10x harder to try to get 5-10% of commission that is sold.

Bloggers don't really make anything trust me, I would know I have three of them and only one has Adsense on it but won't make anything from it and I also have affiliate links in it and that doesn't make anything either.

Here are my blogs:

https://www.taintedreviews.blog/

https://www.thehiddenroomwithspicyreviews.com/

Sick of the lies

 I'm sick of the lies...

I'm sick of you saying you'll do something but weeks and months go by and you never do it. I'm sick of living the way we live.

I'm so tired of it all and I don't want to keep living like this. You never keep your word but you want me to and I'm sick of it. 

Almost 8 years and it's the same thing but this time worst and I'm sick of it. 

You say you will find work but no you don't. You said things will be different. I am work myself to death. I'm writing blogs, I'm affiliate marketing, I'm working Clickworker, I'm streaming on twitch making YouTube videos it's always me and never you.

 I work on the shops and everything else trying to support the kids while you do the bare minimum but expect me to be happy and then, if I make friends I with anyone you are kind of controlling worried if I am going to leave you for them and I am sick of that also. I'm done with it all

I'm suffering from PCOS and worrying everyday and suffer from the pain and sickness but you do nothing but sit in the chair and I'm tired of it. 

You can sleep all day close to it and won't really clean the house while you tell me you got it and rest but no, I get up and walk though I hear you let the foot rest down and then when I walk back you put it back up.

Your game is suppose to come out in March - April and you don't even work on it anymore. 

I just cannot do this anymore and I'm tired of it. My birthday is 1-27 and I bet you got me the same thing as you did last year...nothing. How about Christmas where I bought my own? I don't get cute gifts, I don't get trips, I don't get anything really. What is it like? Having someone buy you random things just because? I don't get that...

My life,2022

 Christmas is on its way and I am not ready. I am normally always ready for Christmas but this year is different.

 Last year, I had money for Christmas where this year I do not since the company that I was working for decided to make it harder for their affiliates to be able to make money. 

They also pay a month behind so it. 

 The threshold for pay out is 50 dollars but if you do not hit 50 you do not get paid so you kind of get it. 

I included an image of the payments and the last time I got paid from the company. 

If anyone feels in the giving spirit, you can always tip me. It is not required but I would be very thankful! I am also looking for remote work if anyone could point the way.

I have been trying to figure things out on my own. The person that I married, made so many promises that it's to the point I am tired of hearing them and they become broken promises that are empty. I have repeatedly asked him to do things and it is like talking to a brick wall and I end up having to do them myself even though he said he would get it, don't worry but what is the point when it is me having to pull your load also because he won't. I am so tired of this, I am tired of living like this, I am tired of the unwanted stress I receive daily and it is not fair to me and my mental health to be put through this even though oh, he applied to jobs, been accepted but comes up with excuses and reasons he can't do it just like everything else. This is not fair to me.  

I have spent a lot of my time applying for jobs for him... I have spent a lot of my time worrying about bills being paid, worried about if everything is in order when he lives careless... I did not get a gift for our anniversary and most of the gifts that I got... I end up giving him money to buy or he some how got it. I don't really get Christmas.. I don't get flowers or chocolates really. I don't even get to go out on dates anymore and it sucks. 

Here are my links... to the gaming stuff https://linktr.ee/taintedlg

Here is my sextoy review blog, you can buy anything from it and I get a few dollars commission anything helps. My blogs have ads on the sides you can buy from which will also give me a few dollar commission. 

MY CASH APP 

MY VENMO 

Depression

 Depression can be so bad that no one can notice until it is to late. You wouldn't know if someone is suffering from depression unless someone tell you. Depressed people such as myself can pretty much mask it and pretend everything is okay when it's totally not and no one will ever know unless they are around you for long periods of time.

 People don't realize that depression can come from just about anything in life from the way a person lives, jobs, not reaching goals and dreams, and pretty much anything that doesn't make the person happy. It could even be the people around you that has brought you down and made you not believe in yourself or they reached their goals and brag about it. 

It is more than just sadness. It is anger that is built up inside from feeling like you have failed and failed so many times and you feel like your not going to make it and you don't want to make it anymore you just want everything to end since you feel like a failure. It's not eating much, not showering, not cleaning, not doing anything you enjoy just laying in bed all day feeling worthless.

Depression is real and it sucks. I say this because one minute your fine and happy the next your sad and depressed trying to figure out what went wrong and over thinking the whole thing causing so much issues that it's just crushing you and you feel yourself lost and wondering. 

It can get to the point of you feeling so along that you just want to end it. You feel like nothing good is going to happen but good things do happen you just have to hang on and be hopeful.

People don't understand. They only start to worry when you go missing and not returning the calls and not there anymore. That's when they start to worry. 

Check on your friends. Most of us are not okay and only saying we are while battling depression so no one worries.

Applying to job after job after job trying to make better of the life we leave but only getting shut down and no call backs and no interviews. Don't give up, it will all come together eventually you just have to hold on.

Loving someone but they treat you so horribly, telling you one thing but lying the next and you whole heartily love them and want to be with them but they only use you until you feel like you are nothing and worthless.

Trying to open up to friends and family but they don't care. They tell you it's life and get over it until one day your over life and no longer here is when they ask why didn't they talk to me or us? Why did they do it? Why did they leave us? But when you tried to talk to them they shoved you off.

Ways to help this is remove negative people in your life. The ones that are always shooting you down and not believing in you. You have to believe in yourself sometimes and give yourself the support that you need cause people out here are not your friends and only want what they can get from you and it doesn't matter how you feel or what you tell them. You have to burn a bridge and careful of the company you keep. Don't tell everyone everything cause they will use it against you.

Give yourself a mental break and take a break from everything that's troubling you and rest. Self care and love is the best of care and love. 

And if you don't feel loved. I love you.