Medicine of a tired spirit: Jealousy and Envy

 Jealousy and Envy are the two most blockers in the world. Being jealous of something that a person has or can get can end up allowing you to miss something that you were suppose to have.

 Being angry or upset because a person has something will not allow you to grow and get what you need. You never know what a person has went through nor their journey or the things they had to go through to get where they are today. 

Life is hard and life always will knock you down to the point you feel like giving up and not go anymore and when you start looking around, you can start to notice that people have different things.

 A lot of people are getting the things you dreamed of and it feels like you are never going to get it and you keep working hard towards it and all kinds of things starts happening and you feel like you are loosing grip and the more you look around and the more you see someone else getting something new or someone else getting things before you and it starts to make you feel like there is no reason to keep going and you want to give up and you become mad, jealous and envy them because of where they are or what they have.

 Yes, this feeling happens to a lot of people but you are not suppose to feel this way because it can end up potentially blocking your blessing and stop you from focusing and keep going on to where you are suppose to be. 

If you give up, then you will end up having to restart the process and not everything is going to come to you as quick as you want them. It is going to take time and it has to be the right time for you to get it. It is going to take a lot of hard work and dedication for you to get to where you want to be in life and giving up is never an option. You may have to stop and take breaks and change your game plan but eventually, it is all going to work out. 

You are also going to have to change your thinking and stop being negative towards everyone and everything. It is all a mindset and once you change it, things will start to get better.

Narcissist Toxic Love

 Sometimes it is best to let a person go to regain yourself. To heal yourself from all the trauma that they caused and everything that you have been going through. 

They showed you how they are, they showed their motives, who they are, what they do. They showed how they hurt you and can flip the script to become the victim and blame you for everything and came up with excuses and reasons and lies trying to trap you and control you. 

They even brought up being suicidal and going to end it multiple times if you leave. They even leave and tell you they didn't leave but you know they did. They lie about everything and could even be cheating on you and you would never know.

 This is guilt tripping trying to keep you in a place where you don't want to be but you stay because you are scared. Don't be scared. Leave them because it is not worth it. 

This type of relationship and people are toxic. They depend on you and make you miserable trying to stay and keep them happy all while they are trying to control, manipulate and use you. They don't care as long as you keep giving.

 They will also throw up they love you, they care about you in reality they don't care about you only what you can do for them. 

They will also say you don't care and love them once you catch on and realize how they are doing you. This is what narcissist behavior is. This is abuse to you, your love and time. Don't think you can fix them because you cannot. They will only hurt you and tear you down and rebuild you to the way they want you to be. 

And if you think your stupid for loving a person like this. You are not. You are brave for trying but it's time for you to heal and grow. 

Give yourself time, care, and love and heal yourself from it all. Your going to be working on soul work that comes from the core but to do this you have to get rid of the negative people and things in life and surround yourself with positive. 

People will only do what you allow so be careful.

Meditation and healing to all.