Here we go again...

The depression feeling is starting to comeback after so many years I pulled myself out of it. I feel let down.

 For months I asked for help around the house to do the things I cannot and am not supposed to do such as lift drywall, move the house around and other things but no.

 I was told I'm going to do it, I'm going to do it and if never got done.

 You quit your job stating oh I'm going to help before your other job comes in which they changed your start date to a later day. I'm going to do it and it's never done. 

For your wife to ask you multiple times to help get it fixed or do it and you repeatedly let me down but then when I bring it up I get nothing but excuses is exhausting. I am tired of having to ask repeatedly and expecting it to be done. 

Years and I do mean years since our anniversary is literally the 29th of March I had high hopes and expectation of but just as always they are let down and it sucks. My concerns mean nothing to you and they don't even bother you. 

I just get hit with the it's okay and the it'll be fine but no it's not fine and I'm tired of the one sided. I'm tired of your lies and empty promises. I'm tired of this "love" thing but yet don't even bother doing anything you say your going to do until it is relevant to you or something is going to happen. I'm sick of it. Its like I don't even matter only what you can get and so you don't be alone. 

You really do the bare minimum and that is it. We barely go anywhere. We haven't been on vacation since we got married. We haven't done anything you promised. I am just so tired of worrying and stressing while you're over there doing your own thing acting like my concerns don't bother you. Marriage isn't supposed to be nor feel like this. I  feel this way everyday or night. I should definitely not have the burden feeling I get that makes me feel hopeless in our marriage because my concerns and you lie to me. 

And another thing, I'm sick of the reassurance. I'm tired of reassuring you. It's like you know your not good enough and I have to always reassure you and I'm tired of it. It's the always you can replace me this that the other but yet you won't do anything I asked nor even bother and then when I get tired of it and end up leaving I'm the bad guy and get yelled at because you won't do anything to even change. Narcissist at its finest.

Truoba| Mordern Housing Plans

Truoba is a place you can go looking for and purchasing housing plans. They have all kinds of different houses and plan ideas to choose from and in my opinion this is a great thing. I honestly love how simple it is to use Truoba.

They also have modern housing plans that are not even that expensive as other plans cost. They even have custom plans and you can pretty much customize everything the way you want which is nice. There are so many different plans and types to choose from such as cozy cottages, to spacious family homes.

They even have ones with upstairs and garages. They even allow you to adjust the rooms sizes and how many rooms you will need so you can pick the best house for you at the right price. In my opinion they are well worth looking at when trying to build a house and looking for housing plans and designs.

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Affordable housing, Ways to get one

 

A way to get an affordable house is to wait until the states have a tax sale, call down to your local tax office and see when they have their tax sale and then go and get one of those. You can also find delinquent tax deeds and pay for those and then they should become yours. If you do not like to do it that way, you can always buy some land and get a tiny house or a pop up house or even a mobile home and go that route. It is best to find land that has water and septic already hooked up or you may have to pay for that but hey, it is cheaper than having to spend 200,000 for a brand new house. This way allows you to save money until you can get better especially in this economy. 

Buying a home right out is not easy they are needing your check stubs for the past two years and sometimes you won't have that. 

You are also needing a great credit score even though some said they would take the 580, they do not. It is so much more on you to try to buy a home. Home buy is not affordable. The affordable housing went extent and are so rare that people do not believe them when they tell you the price due to so many scams going around. 

The houses that has all the rooms needed are way to expensive and wants payment that are often time higher than people can afford and it sucks. It is like you are giving an arm and a leg to have a place to call home. 

Affordable housing would be great for people because they would have a place to forever call theirs without having to worry about if the landlord is going to make them move. 

The bank system doesn't even help those who really need it. It will only help the ones who have money. Unless you have $10,000 or more they do not even want to see you. They won't even really take cash, it has to be in your account because they will claim you are doing illegal things if you hand them cash which is not right but as everyone is saying we are going into a cashless society.

If housing was affordable there would not be as many homeless people as there is because no one can afford a house and be sure that we can eat also and pay bills. Things are expensive. Most of the businesses that are trying to force people into office could convert it into housing for those who needs it. Also businesses that closed down could be a perfect place for the homeless to live. It would be like an apartment to them but no one really wants to help them. No one really wants to help anyone. It is a hand up thing that they don't want to help anyone but themselves. 

It is all about greed, who has the most cash.