Therapy

 Therapy for some are many different things. Therapy allows you to open up and talk about your feelings pretty much anyway you can, want to or feel. 

My therapy is blogging and writing about how I feel, things bothering me and what is on my mind. 

Another therapy for me is anything that heals my inner child and allows me to grow and be better then my parents were. 

I told them growing up that I need therapy, I have a lack of expressing how I feel and it was just blown off. They said I did not need therapy so from there, I decide to bottle up every little bit of emotion that I had and I ended up having this rage and anger and it was like they never cared nor listened to what I needed or want but instead they favored my brother and gave him everything and anything he wanted and I ended up having to cope on my own and figure out how to juggle and manage everything. 

I also enjoy photography but due to having to sale my gear to help fund the house we live in, I never got enough funds or gotten around to buying a new kit and so now I am trying to find other way to cope. 

Favoritism... Parents

One thing I cannot stand is a person who thinks they are better than everyone and bragging about the things that they have or got. A person I have for this example is my father. Growing up, we did not have much. 

We sometimes did not have enough food on the table growing up and now that my grandmother and grandfather died, my dad has money. 

It was not bad enough he asked my brother and I what we would do if he split it as if he was actually going to do so but no he did not. It was silly me thinking he would actually split it but no he kept it all to himself. 

My father growing up, was not the person that he is today. He did not brag about buying new cars, this that the other things that he buys. The person that I knew did not act brand new because he got money. 

He quit his main job, a job where he had benefits and went working for a farm and now he is trying to get back to his main job so he can have days off and benefits.

He already has over 7 cars in the yard. 2 cars do not run, the truck they had to replace the motor on, my mothers old car that he now takes and drive because his vehicle, messed up and he sold. My mothers car now that has some issues that is at the shop. They got a luxurious car because he did some work on a rich guy he knows and he gave it to him and pretty much my brother is getting my mothers car when it gets out of the shop but its a lot of favoritism here.

 My vehicle needs some parts and some work but it doesn't matter. I am on my own. 

I walk around like it does not bother me because of my babies and I don't want them to know how bad this hurts. I walk around like my childhood was the greatest when it does not exist. I am still healing my childhood and inner child with my kiddos. I am doing things with them that my parents did not do with me such as beach trips, and any other places we have never been too. 

It has always been favoritism. My brother, when he graduated high school, my father allowed him to be put on his credit to get loans and go to college. I cannot even finish my degree because I don't have the funding but yet my brother got his degree and help that he needed. He told me no one is going on his credit to ruin his credit but yet my brother did not have a job could not pay it back in which I believe my dad ended up paying for it but yet I couldn't get $8,000 to finish mine.

 Instead my mother was sneaking money around for her sister and got caught and got fussed at and then I needed to borrow money to finish paying for the house that I bought but yet I got on a payment plan with him and I have to pay it back while no one else is having to.

My brother growing up got to go with friends everywhere. He got to go to beach trips and mountain trips and other places while I never got to experience that. My brother got to go stay the night at friends house while I could never. I never got to go anywhere. The only place I have been was to the Zoo with a friend but that was it. 

Also growing up, it was rocky. We hen we got in trouble, we were always getting whooped. It was never a talking to. It never felt like love growing up. It felt like a struggle. Now going over to my parents house it always feels like tension. Like something is wrong maybe it is. Maybe my mother is actually going to start standing up and seeing how my father is doing. 

I don't know. I just know, its a rare occasion for me to bring my kids to see them. It's not like they don't know where I live. It's I always got go see them but they never come see me. It's I always got to try to catch them. Its never a phone call, a text or a check up. It a never bring the kids over and take a day or a moment.  

 

MLM: Multi-level marketing- Pyramid scheme

 MLM is a scam and if  you do not know what it is it's multi-level marketing also known as a pyramid scheme. Affiliate marketing is pretty much an MLM and a lot of people do not realize it.  

They always market affiliate marketing as the best thing to do and an easy way to make cash when in reality you are making the business money and promoting them for free while you are making either nothing or pennies on a dollar.

 It's like when applying to these companies, why am I needed if they are making a lot of money what can I do differently to help the company?

 If there are millions of people promoting them and you see their ads everywhere including though google AdSense how can I help them? 

That's the thing, companies pays other companies like google to promote their products and ads. They pay Facebook and other places to promote.

 So it is like they are using you because you may need the money to get you to promote for them while they sit there still making money and you end up barely making anything. 

So I do not recommend affiliate marketing if you are looking to make money. I do recommend joining Click worker, Oneforma, Prolific, Aurora studios or any of those because you do end up getting paid for tasks that you do and these companies do not scam you. 

Commission Junctions

 Commission Junction is one of the worst platforms that you could affiliate market for!

 CJ is a third party platform where businesses goes and you can have all your affiliate links and other things you need to promote there.

 I personally highly recommend that you never use CJ and run from it. It is nothing but trouble. For starters when you get links from the company, it has trackers in it and it makes them look fake.

 It will not say the websites name or anything like that it will say whatever tracker front in on it. A lot of people are not getting paid from CJ either just like a few affiliate marketing places. 

CJ reminds me of Amazon because if you don't meet their requirements then they will deactivate you and truthfully it gets annoying and having to go back in and reactivate everything is time consuming. Working with commission junction since 2017,  I have never gotten paid out, I only made cents and never made it to the threshold. I never even made a dollar on there. The only thing I made was 68 cents and that was it.

 I also had a lot of companies connected to this website also drop me and deny me for marketing them. 

Be careful of being Scammed!

 I have been an affiliate marketer for about 9 years now and let me tell you, there are a lot of scams out here. If you do not believe me, I have been scammed more than once working with companies.

 Companies like Haute Flair and when trying to request the money that I have earned, nothing. It has been over 3 years and at this point I just kissed it goodbye. I even emailed multiple times asking about it and there is no answer. 

It is like all they actually care about is making money and getting their website promoted. They do not care about paying their ambassadors or affiliate at all.

 It is like we do not exist to them they only see it as free promotion. That is one thing that I dislike about doing affiliate marketing sometimes is that people think that it is going to be easy to affiliate market but in the long run it is really hard work to make a few dollars. Sometimes it is not even dollars it is cents. 

A lot of time is spent in marketing and promoting. It takes more than just posting a link. You have to explain why a person needs the product and how it will help them. 

AdSense is not easy money

 Let me just say, AdSense does not pay like everyone think that they do. Just because you get a lot of views on your blog does not mean you are going to get paid. AdSense does not pay per view. AdSense only pays per click on the ads and some ads are a nice amount of cents and other ads are only one cent so it ranges depending on the brand. Another thing about AdSense is that it is hard to get.

 You have to jump through a lot of hoops for it and in the end it is not really worth it especially if you are creating content like this and blogs. It is however worth it when you are partnered on YouTube but then again trying to get partnered is so hard that it takes years on top of years. 

We have been trying since 2016 but have yet met any of the requirements to even get half partnered. We are lacking the 500-1000 subs and the watch hours in which I know we are not the only ones. There are a lot of people struggling in the same boat trying to make something out of nothing. 

Another way to kind of make money with content creating is get sponsorships and affiliate marketing but if you do not have the following or that is going to be hard to do.  So no, content creating with adsense does not make quick money and honestly it takes a long time to get adsense set up due to content checking and having to go through and look to see if you have the right amount of things needed.

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