Lovely Writes

Flowers bloom and bloom they rot down and so new ones can grow, just like we tear ourselves down to rebuild. Flowers can get hurt and destroyed just like we can, they are just like us alive till something chops them down. At times we do not regrow we do not rebuild we try to cope with our wounds... The wounds are are reminder that it all can happen again and again and again until it is their time to go

As the brown blood flows down my leg along with the water in the shower, as the same painful sharp pains appears in my stomach. I remember the pain from before. The sharp and throbbing pain that you can never forget the same kind of pain you want to never remember. It hurts the blood comes rushing more and more. My belly tightens while my back throbs almost like needles stabbing me. It hurts to the point I don't want to move... throb throb throb... it just keeps flowing and flowing down down down to the point it seems like it's never going to stop... The pain hurts but not as bad as my heart does... Beating beating beating until my pain comes harder and sharper until the tears start rolling from my eyes along with my silent cries...

When looking at a hurt person you can often see yourself inside of them. You want to help them build them self up but yet it's hard. It's hard because you do not know where to start. One wrong move and you can destroy them and yourself all at once. It is hard being hurt and know what its like while trying to cope with yourself and build the other person up. It's hard when they break you down in the process of destroying them self. It takes time and patience, it's not all gonna happen at once. Things are only temporary and this storm that you are in that is making you destroy yourself is not going to last always the best thing to do is talk to someone about everything and DON'T KEEP NOTHING BACK!!!!!! If you love the person tell them, Don't let something destroy you and don't let it destroy them either. Whatever is on your mind speak it tell the truth NEVER LIE ABOUT ANYTHING!!!!! EMPTY YOUR HEAD AND THOUGHTS AND TELL THEM EVERYTHING I PROMISE TALKING HELPS!...

Those are the first words you hear.. time and time again.. when your hurt you want to believe it's  true.. after they hurt you it become harder to believe when those words are told.. It takes lots of trust to believe it.. but after being hurt the first time it's  hard to, doesn’t matter who the person is it still feels like they are going to hurt you… guess what at times. No matter how strong you make yourself they will hurt you someway and break you down till the point you feel like nothing and worthless. After being hurt time after time before trust is hard to come by.. I ain’t gonna hurt you just become words… Words are not actions but words can hurt just like actions… Being hurt can bring you down mentally and emotionally and physically to the point it’s pointless of believing and trying to keep trust while it's pointless of keep trying when you feel worthless and like your nothing so you try to put yourself together and figure out where you went wrong  but you tear ...

Promises are easily broken… Dream can end up never to come true and then it all falls apart…. even thing can be broken... trust and all words can cut like glass and end up hurt, happiness just seems like an illusion it doesn't seem real. 

I was told recently that in order to love someone else you have to love yourself first. Well as I questioned them they told me that I have to talk everything out and let go of the things that cause me anger. I have started to actually love my self more today. I finally told my wife everything and parts of my past right before we met that was keeping me mad at myself. I don't know how to get past that part in my past. I try to push it back and out of my mind but it keeps coming back. I lost my aunt before we met and I didn't get to say bye or do something for her. I loved her just like I love my mother. Shortly after I lost her, I met my wife and it was like it was all planned. I have got mad and done things that I shouldn't have but even though I make her mad my wife has still stayed by my side and hasn't left. I have said things to her that should have never made it to the light of day. I Love her with all my heart and I want to spend the rest of my life with her.

Cartoons are not what they use to be. They are not as interesting, some are more educational and others are just dumb. Back then cartoons was something. We use to sit around watching them and understand them but now that we have grown up cartoons are nothing like they use to be. You barely understand them and what they are talking about. They use to be smart but now they are not because they are remade because the older ones aren't good enough. Remaking everything is not okay, there is no reason people don't like the new they love the old what we grew up on and enjoyed to watch. I don't want my kids watching the new because it's pointless. I mean yeah some of the newer cartoons are okay but its not what we know. I sat down and watched the new and the old and I didn't want to watch the new. There is no meaning to them there is also nothing there no back story or even why they are doing what they doing. There is also no sneak peek of next weeks episode so it doesn...

Love can be the greatest thing in the world or it can be the most painfullest thing ever. Love has a lot of trust that needs to be builded but when its broken down it takes a while  to gain it back. There is lots of things that need to happen in a relationship to even be classified as a relationship because it is a commitment either way you go at it. You date a person to marry. If they don't tell you everything then you barely know them and at times it will end up tearing you apart and wrecking everything you've tried to work to keep together. Let the person know how you feel and everything before so they know how to handle it and take it. Don't try to hide it and then let them find out. It destroys their trust along with everything they've tried to keep and work so hard for. One more thing don't say things you never mean and never I mean never hurt them always try to protect them don't let them slip through your fingertips because you probably will never get...

Alone.. broken... empty Nothing but emotions bundling up and hitting me nothing but tiredness and stress nothing at all my feelings hurt my emotions are trying to show I'm lost.. confused hurt and broken my life is coming together and the truth is out, along with the air that is clear...everything is coming to light from the dark everything is coming undone and being put back like stitches.. the stitches only hurt for a while but in the end it gets put back together hoping it one day will heal and never be broken again... again... is a strong word just like love and trust just like the words that are taken to heart that makes you whole or makes you crumble as you sit there trying to stay strong and hold it all it tears you apart limb from limb as you try to walk away you slowly turn to dust and fade just as if your just a memory alone with being a broken empty shell.

Do you know what it feels like when your alone.... Everything hits you all at once....Everything feels like its your fault... your depression hits you so hard that you cry at the littlest thing.... Have you ever felt alone, like no one will ever understand even if you tried to explain it but words just won't come out and they can't express the way you feel? Have you ever tried to talk but the tears kept rolling and coming down your face and nothing comes out but the sounds of cries that you've been trying to hold back but it's to much so they just show on their own and the only thing that comes out of your mouth is that weird sound that comes from your throat because all the tears have you choked up and you just wanna let it all go and watch it destory itself and you like it did on the inside.

They love to play with anything. You can give them a new toy and they'd rather play with the box more than the toy. They find all kinds of things from paper, shoes, boxes, cables, pens and other thing interesting to play with. My son is one and he just got lots of toys for christmas and he rather play with boxes and plates and even cups instead of the toys. He has a toy box that he likes to dump and play with. He also likes to take clothes out of the hamper and drawers and stroll them everywhere along with his toys. They enjoy playing so much things that it's like why do we have to by you new toys and things when you are so entertained and interested in playing with objects such as boxes. They are also helpful. They take things where you want them to at times and then they come back with the object. They will help you find objects if you just ask and its like awesome but then again they won't say a word and they know exactly where it  is and bring it to you like 30 minutes ...

We always say something we never mean, or at times we say things that we mean but we never do. People have feelings, they trust others and believe them but sometimes people do not do what they say or mean. Some people hurt others and mistreat them. They used them up and abuse them.

Good afternoon, Good evening, good morning unsure where you are, I am struggling a little more today than yesterday. Its getting to where it hurts all over and I can barely walk and stand. My emotions seem okay but I can still tell they are there. My depression isn't as bad today but anything can make it snap. I'm extremely tired and feeling weak but I am still trying to get through it. My headaches have came back along with my dizziness and it is not good.

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Sometimes depression can be so severe that you yourself cannot tell. It takes someone around you to notice how bad it is. You believe your being normal and acting normal but you’re really not. Your thinking to yourself that everything is okay as your trying to keep it all together you slowly break and crack as your crying on the inside and pretending to smile on the out. You just want to cry, and cry and cry not even move, not even be bothered. Your hurting so much you're getting thoughts and they are not good. You kind of want it all to end but your trying to hang on. Your emotions are everywhere, and you cannot control it. Everyone notices how you push yourself away. You barely eat, you barely want to be noticed. It’s like your just there, like you don't matter, like your worthless and useless and everything is passing you by. YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!! There is many of people out there that feels like this, I even feel and felt like this most of my life till now. No matte...

If you love someone  don't let anything break you up. No matter their flaws, past anything. You love them for them and wouldn't want it any other way. You'd go to the edge of the world to get them and you'd do anything to stop their pain.

Everytime it snows here the first thing people grab is all the milk and all the bread. I understand it but just to let you know you can also grab can goods. The milk you can sit it in the ice and snow if the power go out and the bread you can eat it but what about the can goods? You can just open them and eat them if need be. You can also cook on a kerosene heater or wood stove or even grill if  the power goes out.There is no reason just to be grabbing milk and bread.

I cannot believe people are reading my blogs! This is exciting, I do not know how to act honestly. I felt like I was not being seen. I felt like I'm just typing my feelings and emotions and it's just like I was there and now I'm excited even though I have one follower I'm fine with it. I just realized I'm almost at 300 views and it's exciting.

This year is not what I expected it to be. We are struggling more this year than last. People are kind of more crueler and ruder this year. It's like something happened and people who was there are no longer there. The people you helped and said that they will help you are not there and it's just like what has happened. Why is everyone being this way?

Never give up on your dreams, Never give up what you are standing up for, you have a purpose. Be a voice that no one has heard, Say what you mean and mean what you say. Don't let anyone tell you you are weak. Stay strong through everything and if you have to cry during it then so be it. You matter more than you believe and trust me it takes a lot to keep pushing through and continue life like there's nothing wrong with a fake smile as your hiding tears. Just keep being you and push forward no matter what. People will say things and try to bring you down but they don't matter they aren't trying to get to where you are so just move forwards!

Having any kind of major surgery is scary. You do not know what could and can happen. Having a cut and deep wound is also scary. If you turn the wrong way or do something you’re not supposed to it can either one rip open or two hurt like it isn’t no one’s business. There is a lot of things you have to worry about and it is not pretty. For one you cannot wear anything tight. You can if you put a pad on your panty line to pad the incision and if you’re comfortable with it. You can use the pad in the panty line to also catch any drainage that is leaking from the incision. This also helps you determine if you are having more discharge than normal. Your spouse/ partner needs to examine it when you come home and be sure to take pictures of it so you know what it's supposed to look like just in case it kind of comes undone or anything. If it's red, swollen, discharging more than normal, bleeding, has bumps or has puss, red and extremely tender then get to the hospital...

Good morning, good afternoon, good evening depending where you are. It is 8:36 A.M. and I am doing better but worst at the sametime. I am sicker than I was an cannot move. I am in much more pain that I have been and there is something wrong. I am needing more help walking around and moving. At times it is even difficult to do pretty much anything. My C-section was December 27th and I am taking more time with this one to recover and deal with it than I did with my first one. Everyone believes something is wrong or went wrong and I went to one hospital and the doctor did not say anything about it. The nurse however tried to point to the doctor that I have an infection but he did not even do screenings he just gave me higher pain meds because the pain meds was not killing my pain. My first C-section I was fine with my pain within 2 days. I did not need my pain killers but this one I need them and it sucks. I did not expect to be hurting still I expected to be okay and doing my normal rout...

My emotions to day seems a little better than they have since I came home from the hospital. My pain is still here but I believe I am getting a little better one step at a time emotional wise. There maybe times where I can go back into the depression and emotional state but I'm trying so hard to keep it together. It is not easy to deal with all of this by yourself. It is not easy, you slowly destroy yourself and watch everything crash and burn and it feels like you've done all this stuff and that you deserve it all when you really haven't. It is tough trying to piece yourself together and hold it while pushing people away and wearing a fake smile while telling everyone its okay.At times it got worse and server to the point I felt like the worlds just passing me by, like I didn't matter and I was a nobody. It was so bad that it brought out everything all my emotions and depression that I had bottled up and it made it serve where I black out and don't remember anythin...

When we first met it was like fate had brung us together that no one could tear us apart. When I first seen you I knew you had flaws, tears, weaknessess, but most importantly you had love. You took my hand a lead me around that day and it was so magical that I never wanted it to end, in fact I decided that night after I was home that I would somehow someway marry you. It took me a little while but I made it happen. March 29th 2017 I married the girl of my dreams, the mother of my children and though we've had our fights and struggles we have stood by each other. I know your depression and I know how bad it is even without you telling me, I don't want you to go through it alone I want you to be happy. I love you my blushing chipmunk.

it never hurts to be a week or two ahead in school work. It keeps you focus ad also keeps you up just in case there is an emergency

Its just another day that is getting closer... One more day that is just making me older.. one more number. Doesn't matter to me like it use to when I was little. No celebration just one step closer to nothing but stress,worrying,struggling. One more day older with little to no happiness..no joy no excitement... Nothing but the feelings of emptiness. Everyone has gone and your just there sitting alone watching the world pass you by to the point your just there and feeling worthless and like a nobody.

My depression originally started in the 5th grade, besides getting bullied and not being able to comprehend things like the rest. I barely had friends. My dad wasn't always friendly. He would go to work come home be stressed and yell. I didn't want to go to school. I fought with my mom and tried to quit all in the 5th grade. I took aspirin... sometimes 4-6 trying to make it all better. I felt like I was a no one. Nothing happened with the aspirins so I moved to advil and nothing still happened. I use to be a cutter and no one knew. I'd cut on my arm right below the shoulder so no one could see. I sometimes pretended to be sick all the way to 10th grade. 10th grade wasn't as bad it was fine. 11th grade came and I had some things happen to me I never want to speak of. 12th grade rolled around and the same things happened in 12th grade happen again. Near the end of the 12th grade I found the man of my dreams. I had my first son and was happy. After graduating high school I...

Depression is the worst when everything is falling apart Everything starts breaking like the a mirror and glass Everything falls apart and you are left there laying in the dirt alone ................................. NOTHING IS OKAY NOTHING IS EVER GOING TO BE OKAY TIRED OF TRYING BUT I HAVE TO KEEP GOING IF I GIVE UP I'M A COWARD AND I'M FAR FROM IT I CAN'T EXPLAIN MY SCARS... MY NEW PAIN I CAN'T EXPLAIN THE BLOOD THAT IS DRAINING MY PAIN IS GREATER AND GREATER I'VE RIPPED EVERYTHING MY LIFE MY MARRIAGE IT'S ALL GOING TO SHIT LOVE..... TO BE OR NOT TO BE IS THE NEXT QUESTION SHOULD I STAY AND TRY OR DO I JUST DIE RIGHT BESIDE IT....

Anyone can get a fever blister or a cold sore. There is no way around it. They normally pop up if you have a sour or upset stomach. they also come up when you are sick. There is no reason to be embarrassed by it it happens and it is apart of you and it is what makes you you. There are way to treat it.  LEAVE IT ALONE DON'T TOUCH IT IT WILL SPREAD!!!! You can boil or microwave water and then add epsom salt just a little to it. Let it cool off some then take a wash cloth or rag and dab it in the solution and apply it to the sore or blister. If it is open then it may sting and burn but it will get better. You can also drink it but it will make you poop because it helps clean your system. Blistex works but takes weeks and weeks at a time but it still works.  Lysine heals it in about a week or two and it doesn't even take that long for it to disappear.  You can take a tea bag and boil it and apply it to the sore but squeeze it out some. Cranker X alon...

Challenges like the Tide pod challenge, the cinnamon challenge, the one where you light yourself on fire and may other challenges like this are dangerous. They can harm you and everyone around you and they are pointless to do. Why harm yourself with something that could kill you and make everyone around you hurt? It is not cool. Harming yourself is not cool. Who does that just to fit in but why do things that can hurt you severely and could die from the reactions and affects and even the injuries. So why do it? It makes people look stupid. Why try to fit in to a place that you don't belong in? Why not be your own person and not let people rub off on you and be like hey do this its cool. No its not cool its stupid and pointless and can kill you if your not careful.

Don't forget to take your girl on dates Buy your girl things Take her out Do her nails Massage her Buy her flowers candys etc Be there for her Just let her know how much you care Show her how much she matters

When it rains it pours and it pours and pours.... The rain falls down... down ...down just like the tears from my eyes... They fall harder and faster from both the sky and my eye as I lay here and drown more and more into this state...

I'm almost 21 and I'm tired. I feel like I've broken every bone in my body. I'm weak and don't feel good. My incision from my c-section hurts and is throbbing everything is upsetting me and I don't know why. It hurts to walk, lay down, stand and sit.  I'm just trying to heal and recover and I can't

Tell a person no or you can't do something then you'll see their true colors.

P a t i e n c e  ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Everything takes time, There is also a place for everything. Sometimes it may take longer to get things done but in the end it is worth it. Great things comes to the people who wait. But at times whenever we need something we get so impatient and want it to come quicker so we can get it done and not worry about it but there is a wait and a time and place for everything. 

Prayer is excellent. God hears and sees all. No matter what you are going through hold your head up and try to get through it. Get on your knees and pray to him. He can and will. he is the almighty and powerful God. He gives you strength when you feel like nothing is okay and like your losing it all. He is amazing and his work is powerful. Praying works pray through the good and pray through the bad and don't forget to thank him for letting you see a new day. It is a blessing and there are many blessings. He hears your cries and sees your tears and guides you through whatever it is your going through. Never give up hope or faith because God has you through it all. The storm you are going through won't last always they are a test to build your strength along your trust. Not everyone knows what your going through or the path your on but surely people has been through it before just differently and you're not alone no matter how alone you feel. You have to welcome Jesus into y...

Some people change for the better and others change for the worst

I'm so tired and weak. I just wanna curl up and sleep  and rest and focus on getting better.

Some people are the most judgemental people you can ever meet. They have so much negative energy and try to bring people down to the point they feel like nothing. Some people are just sacks of shit and need to get off their high horse. We all are struggling somehow and are in need of help. We all wear out pants the same way. We all was taught how to deal with life differently. People are so quick to point fingers and not realize what they are doing. They blame other people for their own mistakes and try to cope with it. They get people in trouble who haven't done anything or those who won't harm a soul. There is so much negativity and diversity in this world. Some people need to open their eyes and realize what they are doing to those around them. Some also need to own up to their own mistakes.

Not everyone is your friend. They talk about you behind your back, make fun of you when your struggling but expect you to give them things when they are in need. They will never be there and be fake towards your face and be opposite behind your back. They stab you in the back any chance they get and watch you rise as they want and wishing you'll fall. They are not your friends. Ask yourself who was really there when I needed help? Who can I count on that will not stab me in the back and make fun of me?

Giving up is not an option. You can not give up because of something is tough or rough. You can not give up on your dreams just because something is not going the way you expect it. Struggling is normal. There is always going to be a test in life no matter what path you go though and I refuse to give up and lose everything I have.

People will come and go throughout your life, they are never garatuee to stay in your life. They will move on without you. They won't help you at all they will use you and try to take what you have right from you. They will try ways to bring you down. They do not want to see you rise. They will talk about you and say things to hurt you. That is when you need to find out who is there for you and who is not a persons true colors will show you who they truly are.

College is difficult when you have 2 kids. It is also difficult when you are trying to rest after getting surgery. I had a C-section December 27th, I got to leave on December 29th. Things are straining us. We are struggling to pay bills. My birthday is January 27th. I don't want to celebrate it I am to weak and tired and hurting. I just want to not be stressed. I want to be able to pay my bill and that will be fine with me. I haven't got a gift for my birthday in about 3 years. I haven't got a cake in God knows when. This is tough. I can't even hold my 1 year old because he is to heavy. I can barely hold myself up to walk, my husband has to help me walk because I cannot. He is also in school and tending to our kids and me all at the sametime and I know he's worried and stressed and I just want to be able to help. I just want to get better and be stressed free. https://paypal.me/pools/c/80KMtWxzdI

It was below freezing temperatures and the water froze. We are from the south. We are use to 32- 29 degree weather. We are not USED TO 10-5 degree weather. It was so cold we didn't know how to prepare besides wear lots of clothings. The water, ponds and lakes are still frozen and slowly thawing. Hopefully it doesn't get that bad cold again.

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Having curly hair is not a bad thing but it can be war. You break combs and brushes, you can not just brush it because it will frizz. Heat is not your best friend. You go through hours trying to fix it. At times you just wanna give up with it. You use all kinds of lotions and treatments, you can not just strengthen it or blow dry it. The sun isn't your friend either. There's certain shampoos and conditioners you need to use. You will need to moisturize your hair due to  it being dry. You will have split ends no matter what you do, You can trim it but it has to be cut certain ways. You get frustrated and throw it up in a ponytail or messy bun just because you don't wanna deal with it.  The struggles and wars of having natural curly hair.

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Having a back to back C-section is rough. What is even rougher is being on bed rest during both pregnancies. My husband and I got married March 29th 2016, We found out days later that we was pregnant again but the thing is we had protection. A month or two later I was rushed to the hospital because I was in pain which felt like stabbing pain. I had to have ERCP done which is removing a gallstone from my gallbladder duck because it was stuck. This put me in radiation and more radiation. We thought we was going to lose our second son and was prepared for it. I was still in the stabbing pain and found out they had to place a pancreatic stent in my pancreas because their tube kept going into my pancreas with the dye. After weeks and weeks of hurting we had to go get the stent removed. My husband could not work because he had to take care of our one year old and is still having to juggle taking care of our one year old our 2 month old and I. I thought this C-section would be normal like my ...

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