Shifting life growth

There is a shift and it is pulling you. The people you thought were friends are really not your friends. Everything starts to feel different and the people you surround yourself with no longer give you the same feels. You are going to step back and evaluate the things and people are around you.

The way they start asking you for money, they way you show up for them and they don't for you the support, love and energy you give them but they don't for you. The doubt they give and everything you feel does not feel the same. 

Eventually, you will get tired of that feeling and eventually you will cut them off. Once you cut them off and no longer interact with them things will start getting better. You don't grow staying in the same place. You grow when you leave and branch out. You will notice things changing including your mindset but you are going to have to want that change. 

Eventually you may find people just like wanting to grow and find people that are going to support you and be there for you. 

This is you leveling up and once you do that. It gets better. 

I don't understand people

 I don't understand how people can basically pretend to be something they are not or put up a front and then days, weeks or months later their true self gets revealed showing that they are not who they said to be that they are not what they showed to be.

It takes more time and energy to lie. Then after lying you have to come up with more lying and try to remember all of the lies you told hoping not to slip up and hoping the person you lied to does not figure it out and basically stop believing you.

Not being honest with a person can bring up trust issues. Trust issues can bring up a lot more things and can end up causing trauma to the other person to the point they don't and feel as if they cannot trust anyone.

If a person is not happy in the relationship they should just leave. They shouldn't play games with the other person and just lead them on. They should just go cause once a person finds out it's over anyways. But sometimes people are to busy doing on their own accord. They see the good, love and care in the person and they just want to tag them along and keep them to themselves while they are out here cheating and not being faithful. 

It sucks it really does but it happens a lot more than you think. Many people who have a good heart get used to the point that they do not want to be in a relationship. They are afraid to love and trust again. They do not want to invest time into something new in fears that they will be broken and hurt again and have the feeling that everyone is out to use them.

So if you find a good person, be honest with them and never lie to them no matter how bad you think it will hurt them.