Affiliate marketing is not the best!

 Let me honest, affiliate marketing does not make anything. You have to actually really push yourself out there to get people to buy things and look at your stuff. Sometimes you will feel like it is going no where and you are at the wits of your ends trying to make ends meet

. Affiliate marketing is basically free advertisement without being paid.

 People can look at your stuff and decide to go to the website and buy it without using your links meaning you make nothing for it. Trust me, I have been an affiliate marketer for 5 years now and now, its like no one is buying, looking nor clicking. 

People will lie to you and tell you it is a quick way to make money it or you can make X amount of income with it. This is not lie but it can be. So do not get your hopes up thinking it is a quick route to make money because it is not. You have to work 10x harder to try to get 5-10% of commission that is sold.

Bloggers don't really make anything trust me, I would know I have three of them and only one has Adsense on it but won't make anything from it and I also have affiliate links in it and that doesn't make anything either.

Here are my blogs:

https://www.taintedreviews.blog/

https://www.thehiddenroomwithspicyreviews.com/

No longer happy...

 I am no longer happy in my life. I am no longer happy nor excited with the things that use to excite me and make me happy.

I cannot even fake it like I am anymore. I'm so exhausted and stressed that I'm tired. I have been looking for jobs trying to do everything I can from blogging, affiliate marketing and so much more.

 I exhausted myself helping others that I no longer want to help anyone. I no longer sleep at night because all the anxiety that I feel happens the most when I try to lay down and rest. The thoughts are horrible, the panic attacks suck and the seizures are the worst.

I graduated college, a course that I pushed myself though to get a certificate that I have to take a big test for but if I complete the degree program I won't so I decided to go back to get the Bachelor degree hoping something comes from it.

I watch my dreams fall apart and never come true really. I thought I would own a home, have some land and possibly have a little farm but no it hasn't happened yet. I also wanted to travel around and visit places but no, that doesn't look like it is ever gonna happen.

We are in a three bedroom rental and there are 6 of us living in it. I'm not complaining about it as long as we have a roof over our head but I was promised we would move and never did. 

I'm just tired of the false promises that you gave me. I'm tired of you saying your going to do something and you don't at all. I'm tired of the back and forth. I'm tired of it all. 

I'm tired of the back and forth me explaining everything how I feel, what I feel and nothing gets done about it. I am tired of the yelling, I am tired of the arguments. I am tired of it all.. My mental health is no longer worth putting myself though this. 

Some how, I will change this. Some how I will change it all and become better and do better.