Lovely Writes

 I suffer from a lot of anxiety. I also have a hormone imbalance that plays a factor in it along with having to attempt to be perfect as a child. It was like I had to please my father growing up. I had to do everything he said to a tee to make sure that he was not mad or going to yell at us.   Everything had to be done his way or the way he wanted and my mother would cover up for us if something happened or went wrong. Truthfully, their marriage still does not feel the greatest nor the happiest.  Going to visit them every so often feels like its in shambles and everything is rocky because its like you cannot be your own person there, you have to be of his image and the way he wants and a lot of things he disapproves of like piercings and tattoos and hair dying and certain hair styles along with sexuality and he talks about people when they are overweight and pretty much not doing things he prefers or if someone is not working.  I in fact hid my sexuality and my ...