Something I would of told me younger self

The things that I would tell my younger self if I could is that those you call your friends are really not your friends. They were only using you to get things because they wanted to and you where an easy target and really to nice and always wanted to help them. 

Be careful who you trust because not everyone should be trusted. Those who you hung out with were never your friend, and you should not trust them. Friends are the kind of people you can call on when you need help, those were not. 

Do not focus on things because stress is real and it does not matter. Take things one day at a time. 

Life is never easy, it is filled with ups and downs and you won't figure it all out but you have to figure out things on the way. 

Not everyone is going to be real and tell you the truth. 

People are going to be mean and judge you, just ignore them because karma will get to them.

Do not brag about anything you have because it can be gone. 

Don't tell anyone anything because it is not their business. 

If you make it be silent about it, things can happen.

People do not want to see you do well and they will do all kinds of things to ruin you.

Watch who you give your love to, you may end up regretting them. 

Affiliate marketing jobs are not what they use to be, make plans and have back up so you won't be doing what you are doing now and trying to make it and push to make money. 

No one really trusts anyone so, be cautious, and don't get upset or mad when your stores and stuff start decreasing and you stop making money. 

Blogging is okay, you just won't get adsense on it. 

You can keep writing from the heart but people will not care about you.

You can keep helping people but don't expect anything from them.

Don't tread life lightly because things are not always what they seem and where you are is not permanent. You can control your life and how it goes. 

Mentally drained, physically drained

 Ever feel like your alone? Ever feel like the weight of the world is on your shoulders and you have to do everything since others and family are not doing what they said they would or you feel like your repeating yourself over and over trying to get help but they aren't helping you and doing things their way when your telling them what needs to be done and what is causing you stress. Yes I am currently in that state. I am mentally drained and physically drained. 

I suffer from anxiety and lots of it and it feels like the weight of everything is on me. I am trying so hard daily to keep it all together but juggling life, trying to find remote work, trying to sell my vinyl stickers and decals, trying to get YouTube up or something to support my family all while trying to juggle college and make sure things are going smoothly in the only place that was suppose to give peace but it's not. I have felt this way for the last five years and it's only getting worst. I have openly expressed myself of what could help but it's like I'm talking to a brick wall. I have wore myself down to the point I'm exhausted to the point I don't sleep at night and sleep a little during the day.

I'm the one writing all the blog posts that can't get AdSense due to one is adult content and it ruined my other blogs from getting it. I'm filling out job application for remote jobs since being an affiliate marketer isn't paying the bills. I am trying to help myself since all I have been doing is putting others first and their needs. 

I cared way to much for others when all they did was use me to the point I don't want to help anyone anymore. It's to the point my circle was small but it's even smaller now since I'm getting rid of the negativity and those that just want to take and take and take and use and use and use. I noticed a lot more positivity coming from it but I have a big heart and it hurts but I had to do what I had to to get my happiness and peace back. 

I am applying to jobs daily monthly weekly, trying to find something but its like no one is hiring and wants to hire. It is getting exhausting trying to find work especially something I can do remotely since I have kids and its not easy since most remote jobs are phone jobs. 

I also suffer from PCOS and that sucks. It causes more anxiety and depression. It causes pain and makes you feel alone. It causes hormone imbalance and can make you flip on everyone over nothing. They won't do anything but give birth control to counter act it something that can end up causing more anxiety and depression. I don't want anymore anxiety. I don't want anymore depression. I want to be at peace. I don't want to suffer anymore. 

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Life stressing you out?

 Are you stressed about life and don't know what else to do? I might have a solution for you. You can sit back and just look around you and relax. You can take 5 minutes-1 hour a day do whatever hobby you enjoy to unwind from your stressful day or you can go by your local Walmart and go into the vitamin section  and get you something called Stress relief by health and habit. I absolutely enjoy the way it just pulls my stress and anxiety and depression from me and the best thing is you can take up to two capsules a day. 

With PCOS I was having severe anxiety and stressing over everything since my hormones are imbalanced and all they were going to do was put me on birth control and possibly antidepressants not help me the way I though they would since they did not even actually check if the cyst is okay but due to heavy bleeding she just marked it as everything and stable when it really no longer feels like it and its hurting me in my groin area again and pushing down making my pelvic hurt to walk. The stress relief helped. 

 

A strong woman

 When you are a strong woman you are independent. You will do things on your own and not care. You will pull your weight and make sure those around you and your family will and can make it. The old saying goes a strong independent woman will not need a man to do anything for them they got it themselves. Yes it would be nice to have some help from time to time but sometimes the help that you get is no good and does no good. 

We basically heard every excuse and all kinds of things from I will do something and they never do it or the reasons why they cannot do anything. We heard it all and it's the same thing either from the same person or different people. Never get your hopes up because they will surely tell you things that you want to hear or they will tell you things they think you want to hear. I have heard it all from don't worry to I will do something and been disappointed day in and day out waiting for it to get done and guess what months to years down the road it has not been done or when I get tired something being a way and I try to do something for myself then they just jump up and try to do it and do it and give you some excuse of why they haven't done it.

 EXCUSES, EXCUSES, EXCUSES BLAME, BLAME, BLAME. A human can only take so much and then its like we get tired of having to tell what to do. We get tired of being blamed and hearing the excuses. We ask a simple thing and we get nothing but excuses or time they will do it and it never gets done. It all just piles up.

 Us women sometimes decide to take things in our own hands cause we are sick of it. We ask for simple things to be done and we get disappointed and so we learn to pick up our own weight and carry it and not wait for anyone. We make sure our family is good and bills are paid. Waiting for people to do stuff can get tiring and start to pile up. This could be stressful and harmful. Some may not understand this but most will.

Marriage and Clingy-ness

Lets talk about marriage and how sweet it is shall we? It's a great thing marriage is when you find the right person to confide in but now lets talk about clingy-ness the one thing that causes marriage to kind of shift away.

Clingy-ness is not good for a marriage it brings all kinds of things such as jealousy, selfishness and many other things. It can turn a beautiful process into a beautiful nightmare and tragedy.

Marriage is suppose to be built on trust but if there is no trust then guess what there is nothing there it turns into a repeating nightmare that you just want to escape from and have fears that you cannot.

You can become broken if and start to crumble as your trying to hold it all together there should never be selfishness in marriage and if there is trust then you should never have to worry if your spouse still wants you and loves you.

Being broken is hard while trying to hold up your head and make sure nothing is falling apart. It is a tough job when one person is pulling the whole thing because the other person has gave up. It can and will destroy you as a person and end up  tearing you down. Sometimes if it is like this it's best to leave the marriage and rebuild. Other times it's best to communicate and tell the other how you feel or it will keep happening.

Communication is key in any relationship, don't get mad don't judge just listen to what the other one say and nine times out of ten it will make it better.