Depression

 Depression can be so bad that no one can notice until it is to late. You wouldn't know if someone is suffering from depression unless someone tell you. Depressed people such as myself can pretty much mask it and pretend everything is okay when it's totally not and no one will ever know unless they are around you for long periods of time.

 People don't realize that depression can come from just about anything in life from the way a person lives, jobs, not reaching goals and dreams, and pretty much anything that doesn't make the person happy. It could even be the people around you that has brought you down and made you not believe in yourself or they reached their goals and brag about it. 

It is more than just sadness. It is anger that is built up inside from feeling like you have failed and failed so many times and you feel like your not going to make it and you don't want to make it anymore you just want everything to end since you feel like a failure. It's not eating much, not showering, not cleaning, not doing anything you enjoy just laying in bed all day feeling worthless.

Depression is real and it sucks. I say this because one minute your fine and happy the next your sad and depressed trying to figure out what went wrong and over thinking the whole thing causing so much issues that it's just crushing you and you feel yourself lost and wondering. 

It can get to the point of you feeling so along that you just want to end it. You feel like nothing good is going to happen but good things do happen you just have to hang on and be hopeful.

People don't understand. They only start to worry when you go missing and not returning the calls and not there anymore. That's when they start to worry. 

Check on your friends. Most of us are not okay and only saying we are while battling depression so no one worries.

Applying to job after job after job trying to make better of the life we leave but only getting shut down and no call backs and no interviews. Don't give up, it will all come together eventually you just have to hold on.

Loving someone but they treat you so horribly, telling you one thing but lying the next and you whole heartily love them and want to be with them but they only use you until you feel like you are nothing and worthless.

Trying to open up to friends and family but they don't care. They tell you it's life and get over it until one day your over life and no longer here is when they ask why didn't they talk to me or us? Why did they do it? Why did they leave us? But when you tried to talk to them they shoved you off.

Ways to help this is remove negative people in your life. The ones that are always shooting you down and not believing in you. You have to believe in yourself sometimes and give yourself the support that you need cause people out here are not your friends and only want what they can get from you and it doesn't matter how you feel or what you tell them. You have to burn a bridge and careful of the company you keep. Don't tell everyone everything cause they will use it against you.

Give yourself a mental break and take a break from everything that's troubling you and rest. Self care and love is the best of care and love. 

And if you don't feel loved. I love you.

Investing time

Investing time in the wrong people and the wrong things can be costly and you not even realize it. Investing time into things that don't represent you this includes the people that around you, jobs, anything that is negative can cost you. You will start to lose yourself and lose sight of the person you want to be and are trying to be, get the job or career that you are wanting in life. 

Time just like love is valuable. It is something that you cannot get back so if you waste it and a lot of it you can count it as gone. The only thing you can do is move forward and hope to not waste it again.

People enjoy wasting other's time since they have nothing better to do but time is precious. People will also use you if you show them a lot of care and love.

 Invest yourself into positive spots and only allow positivity in. Don't invest in the negative and or a place where your hated or envied then you will be wasting your time when you could of made something out of it. 

Jealous eyes and ears are the ones that will try to bring you down since they didn't get anywhere nor believe that you can do it.

Make sure you put your time into those that will put time into you and not use you. Be careful of the company you keep. They will waste your time having you think they want the same thing you do when in actuality they don't. They don't care about you they only care and what you can do for them and when you stop they will do you dirty, call you names and all kinds of stuff and then leave you standing there realizing they weren't for you. 

You can tell those that have been investing their time into themselves because they don't let anyone close to them. You can tell those that have been hurt and taken the time to heal themselves. If you cannot, they are the ones that doesn't let anyone get to close anymore and take care of themselves first before they help others. 

Most of these people that claim to be friends do not care for you. Just wait. Stop doing things for them and watch them and notice the negativity they bring around you. Listen to how they speak and gossip about you. Think about what they are saying behind your back if they are talking about others. 

Never tell anyone anything about you nor your hardship. They will use it against you in the long run and won't care.

It will be come lonely but eventually you will find those that are for you and get the things that you want. The lonely part will shape you into a better person. Always stay positive and remove yourself from the negative. Remember whatever you give, whatever you do will come back. 

Mentally drained, physically drained

 Ever feel like your alone? Ever feel like the weight of the world is on your shoulders and you have to do everything since others and family are not doing what they said they would or you feel like your repeating yourself over and over trying to get help but they aren't helping you and doing things their way when your telling them what needs to be done and what is causing you stress. Yes I am currently in that state. I am mentally drained and physically drained. 

I suffer from anxiety and lots of it and it feels like the weight of everything is on me. I am trying so hard daily to keep it all together but juggling life, trying to find remote work, trying to sell my vinyl stickers and decals, trying to get YouTube up or something to support my family all while trying to juggle college and make sure things are going smoothly in the only place that was suppose to give peace but it's not. I have felt this way for the last five years and it's only getting worst. I have openly expressed myself of what could help but it's like I'm talking to a brick wall. I have wore myself down to the point I'm exhausted to the point I don't sleep at night and sleep a little during the day.

I'm the one writing all the blog posts that can't get AdSense due to one is adult content and it ruined my other blogs from getting it. I'm filling out job application for remote jobs since being an affiliate marketer isn't paying the bills. I am trying to help myself since all I have been doing is putting others first and their needs. 

I cared way to much for others when all they did was use me to the point I don't want to help anyone anymore. It's to the point my circle was small but it's even smaller now since I'm getting rid of the negativity and those that just want to take and take and take and use and use and use. I noticed a lot more positivity coming from it but I have a big heart and it hurts but I had to do what I had to to get my happiness and peace back. 

I am applying to jobs daily monthly weekly, trying to find something but its like no one is hiring and wants to hire. It is getting exhausting trying to find work especially something I can do remotely since I have kids and its not easy since most remote jobs are phone jobs. 

I also suffer from PCOS and that sucks. It causes more anxiety and depression. It causes pain and makes you feel alone. It causes hormone imbalance and can make you flip on everyone over nothing. They won't do anything but give birth control to counter act it something that can end up causing more anxiety and depression. I don't want anymore anxiety. I don't want anymore depression. I want to be at peace. I don't want to suffer anymore. 

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Life stressing you out?

 Are you stressed about life and don't know what else to do? I might have a solution for you. You can sit back and just look around you and relax. You can take 5 minutes-1 hour a day do whatever hobby you enjoy to unwind from your stressful day or you can go by your local Walmart and go into the vitamin section  and get you something called Stress relief by health and habit. I absolutely enjoy the way it just pulls my stress and anxiety and depression from me and the best thing is you can take up to two capsules a day. 

With PCOS I was having severe anxiety and stressing over everything since my hormones are imbalanced and all they were going to do was put me on birth control and possibly antidepressants not help me the way I though they would since they did not even actually check if the cyst is okay but due to heavy bleeding she just marked it as everything and stable when it really no longer feels like it and its hurting me in my groin area again and pushing down making my pelvic hurt to walk. The stress relief helped. 

 

PCOS, Diabetics, Herbals to help the body

 If you are having PCOS and your doctor is not doing anything for it and you are in pain to the point that nothing you do is working. Go to your local Walmart or order on amazon grab you some Cystex PM which will help the pain while you are sleeping and then get some Furocyst. 

Furocyst and Turmeric will help you with your pain, period cramps, and it will help you if you do not have a period. It helps regulate your blood sugar and insulin and does so much more than what they can give. It is all natural and will help you regulate your hormones and period without the birth control and pharmaceuticals that they push.

It will help with the swelling of the uterus and ovary. It can even make the cyst disappear and no longer bother you.

 Doctors do not want to tell you this because they get paid for how many visits you have and get part of the money from the medications that they prescribed. 

My doctor only prescribed me birth control and did not explain anything and hoping that it helps and that I can loose weight in reality the birth control is just going to put more weight on me and mess with the hormones that she failed to check. So I am looking into different things to help me and those two I know helped me.

Fenugreek helps produce breastmilk, lower blood sugar, boost testosterone in men, helps with cholesterol levels, helps with inflammation, helps with loosing weight if you need it and balancing hormones, helps with itchy skin and so much more including fever, vomiting and it is nothing but a herb so be careful if you are allergic to fenugreek seeds. It also has vitamins in it. It is just like Furocyst but a little better. 

If you are needing something else to lower your blood sugar and help you loose weight Chromium helps with that also.

Turmeric helps with inflammation and swelling by lowering blood pressure and it can also help increase the bile that is in the stomach to help digestion better.

Cinnamon helps the gut health and is used for anti bacterial. It can also help loose weight and if you mix it with turmeric it can help with cold symptoms and creates antibodies that allows you to detox your body. Cinnamon also helps with reducing fast blood sugar and could help with lowering the diabetic symptoms. 

Curcumin helps with parts of the body that is inflamed by relieving it and working as an inflammatory. It can help with anxiety, arthritis, high cholesterol and fats that is in the blood.

Ginger works as an inflammatory and helps with the digestive tract. 

Aloe Vera helps increase insulin levels and helps the kidney. It also helps with anxiety and depression and relieves stress.

Dandelion, fennel helps the digestive tract.

Fennel helps with anemia, skin, works as an anti-inflammatory and helps with heart. It is a wonderful source of fiber.

Dandelion helps with anti-inflammatory, blood sugar, lower blood pressure, help with liver health and could possibly help with weight loss.

Catnip tea helps with intestinal and digestive tracts and it also helps with babies that have colic which is a lot of air and built up gas on their tummy. 

Gymnema destroys sugar and helps lower the sugar that is in the blood to allow your body to produce insulin better and fight off diabetes.

If you get your gallbladder out you will need liver support and bile salt or ox salt that will help your body be strong and process the fats and helps keep your body healthy. Get it here

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A good heart

 Having a good heart is troublesome for many people in may different ways. We tend worry, care and love a lot and try to help everyone and be there for people no matter what. They can do us any kind of way and we still try to be there for them. It's like we feel we have to help them. We have to be there for them. They will feed you a story and make you believe it and it makes you feel like you have to help them because they are alone from what they told you. Because everyone leaves you and no one cares about them and they have no one. This is what they make you believe. 

This is the story they will tell you to make you stay to manipulate you because you have a heart of gold and they want to keep you to themselves. They will make it seem like you are the crazy one when you start realizing what they are doing and telling people about them and confronting them about it. They are good at flipping the script and projecting themselves on to you.

Eventually you'll get tired and drained from it and you eventually drop all contact and communication and it will hurt but it's the only form of peace you get. You will have to heal and rebuild yourself from this and occasionally you will start wondering if you don't wrong and how to fix it and you think you can fix and help them but truthfully you cannot only they can. You will wear yourself down and out trying to help someone who doesn't wanna be helped. 

High Risk Online Buisness?

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 Not only you can make blogs you can also run a shop for cheaper than what shopify is charging. I had my run ins with shopify because I am a high risk selling adult novelty toys and was looking for website hosting and could never get seen using shopify but I then I found Dream host and never had a problem. They have so much stuff that allows you to get traffic and help you get out there and make you feel like you are not being shadow banned. 

There are all kinds of plug ins on dream-host that allows you to get payments from Cash app to Payoneer and plenty of other ways including paypal which pay pal is okay and not the greatest over the years I have had issues with them and they would not give me my money. 

If you are selling adult products be warn that stripe does not like handling high risks so they will turn you down but other than that there's others out there.

Shopify does not support CBD, THC and tobacco businesses they consider them high risk and more. 

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