Dead Flowers...

Flowers bloom and bloom
they rot down and so new
ones can grow, just like
we tear ourselves down
to rebuild. Flowers can
get hurt and destroyed
just like we can, they
are just like us alive
till something chops
them down. At times
we do not regrow
we do not rebuild
we try to cope with
our wounds...
The wounds are
are reminder that
it all can happen again
and again and again
until it is their time to go

The same feeling The Same memory

As the brown blood flows down my leg along with the water in the shower, as the same painful sharp pains appears in my stomach. I remember the pain from before. The sharp and throbbing pain that you can never forget the same kind of pain you want to never remember. It hurts the blood comes rushing more and more. My belly tightens while my back throbs almost like needles stabbing me. It hurts to the point I don't want to move... throb throb throb... it just keeps flowing and flowing down down down to the point it seems like it's never going to stop... The pain hurts but not as bad as my heart does... Beating beating beating until my pain comes harder and sharper until the tears start rolling from my eyes along with my silent cries...

Yourself

When looking at a hurt person you can often see yourself inside of them. You want to help them build them self up but yet it's hard. It's hard because you do not know where to start. One wrong move and you can destroy them and yourself all at once. It is hard being hurt and know what its like while trying to cope with yourself and build the other person up. It's hard when they break you down in the process of destroying them self. It takes time and patience, it's not all gonna happen at once. Things are only temporary and this storm that you are in that is making you destroy yourself is not going to last always the best thing to do is talk to someone about everything and DON'T KEEP NOTHING BACK!!!!!! If you love the person tell them, Don't let something destroy you and don't let it destroy them either. Whatever is on your mind speak it tell the truth NEVER LIE ABOUT ANYTHING!!!!!
EMPTY YOUR HEAD AND THOUGHTS AND TELL THEM EVERYTHING I PROMISE TALKING HELPS!!!!

I ain’t gonna hurt you...

Those are the first words you hear.. time and time again.. when your hurt you want to believe it's true.. after they hurt you it become harder to believe when those words are told.. It takes lots of trust to believe it.. but after being hurt the first time it's hard to, doesn’t matter who the person is it still feels like they are going to hurt you… guess what at times. No matter how strong you make yourself they will hurt you someway and break you down till the point you feel like nothing and worthless. After being hurt time after time before trust is hard to come by.. I ain’t gonna hurt you just become words… Words are not actions but words can hurt just like actions… Being hurt can bring you down mentally and emotionally and physically to the point it’s pointless of believing and trying to keep trust while it's pointless of keep trying when you feel worthless and like your nothing so you try to put yourself together and figure out where you went wrong  but you tear youself down again and then the words you hea are  but I ain't gonna hurt you...

Broken promises

Promises are easily broken… Dream can end up never to come true and then it all falls apart…. even thing can be broken... trust and all words can cut like glass and end up hurt, happiness just seems like an illusion it doesn't seem real. 

Love Yourself First

I was told recently that in order to love someone else you have to love yourself first. Well as I questioned them they told me that I have to talk everything out and let go of the things that cause me anger. I have started to actually love my self more today. I finally told my wife everything and parts of my past right before we met that was keeping me mad at myself. I don't know how to get past that part in my past. I try to push it back and out of my mind but it keeps coming back. I lost my aunt before we met and I didn't get to say bye or do something for her. I loved her just like I love my mother. Shortly after I lost her, I met my wife and it was like it was all planned. I have got mad and done things that I shouldn't have but even though I make her mad my wife has still stayed by my side and hasn't left. I have said things to her that should have never made it to the light of day. I Love her with all my heart and I want to spend the rest of my life with her.

Cartoons

Cartoons are not what they use to be. They are not as interesting, some are more educational and others are just dumb. Back then cartoons was something. We use to sit around watching them and understand them but now that we have grown up cartoons are nothing like they use to be. You barely understand them and what they are talking about. They use to be smart but now they are not because they are remade because the older ones aren't good enough. Remaking everything is not okay, there is no reason people don't like the new they love the old what we grew up on and enjoyed to watch. I don't want my kids watching the new because it's pointless. I mean yeah some of the newer cartoons are okay but its not what we know. I sat down and watched the new and the old and I didn't want to watch the new. There is no meaning to them there is also nothing there no back story or even why they are doing what they doing. There is also no sneak peek of next weeks episode so it doesn't click its like they are just throwing things kids way with no back story or even whats going to happen. I totally dislike the new cartoons and I believe it was better with what we grew up on instead of this because we are from the 90's and their shows was the bee's knees and awesome with a great story.