2023

 This year was an alright year until I got sick with something that is still un-diagnosed but is making me loose weight and be nauseated, have diarrhea, vomiting, and cannot eat and we are dealing with a housing situation because the now owner who bought it in 2020 decided he doesn't get enough monthly income from it and is now in the hole because he wants his $35,000 and wanted to sell it even though we offered to pay him more in rent and now we do not know what he is doing. 

This is a mess, he decided he wanted to do this right here at the holidays where everything is supposed to be happy. My kid's birthday is around Christmas and this year, I just don't even know if I can get Christmas for them because of this. Because I don't know what is going to happen nor if we're going to have a place to call home.

 Every year, we always done something big for Christmas and Birthdays and this year I just don't see myself doing it because I am trying to save every dollar I have to be sure we can get another place to live. Renting around here is not cheap, there is nothing really for low income families and now places are doing credit checks in which if your credit is no good you cannot rent from them or they charge you more and it sucks because of that on top of they want you to have 3x the income and a few other things like charging the rent payment in a deposit and of course there are so many scams you never know what is real anymore. 

This place we have been home for 7 years and we are trying our best to keep it together in front of the kids but it is getting harder now because of all of this. I wish I could just get 35,000 so I do not have to worry about a roof over our heads and we could just celebrate the holidays without worry. 

January 27th 2024

 

January 27th, 2024 will be my 27th birthday. This is a major milestone for me. I am really lucky to be alive due to a wreck my mother had with me while I was in the womb. 

I survived so many things in life including this sickness that I have that is still diagnosed.  I am blessed with 3 wonderful kids, a wonderful husband and a loving family. 

I am proud of how far I came and how much I grew. I hope 27 is as good to me as 26 was. 

Thank you all for viewing my blog over the years and allowing me to open up. 

Who is for you? Who is against you?

 You can tell who is for you and who is against you. You can tell the motives of a person and how they are. Read the energy level from the person. 

Look at their motives. Who is for you, who is against you.

 When you have good news and you tell them do they squish and roll up their face because it isn't happening to you or are they happy for you? 

Are they a downer and always complaining and never getting anywhere? 

Do you tell them your plans and they doubt you saying you will never make it?

Watch those who you tell your plans to because not everyone is for you. Some people will only want to hear ideas so either they can steal them or doubt you or talk you out of it. 

These kinds of people will not allow you to grow and you need to get rid of them or you will end up missing out on your chance because of jealousy or they don't want you to go. 

Replant yourself into a bigger pot, water yourself and snip off the dead root and stems and grow.

Remove yourself from the negativity. 

 You can do it. If it fails, then try again sometimes it will take more than once to get it right. 

Gift Giving

 

I've come to the painful realization that I've never truly treated myself to anything meaningful. All the generosity I extended was directed outwardly—video games, a laptop, and various gifts for friends. Strangely, neither the laptop nor the games I bestowed upon someone else ever saw any use.

I'm left wondering what it's like to receive a gift simply because someone was thinking of me, rather than as reciprocation for the things I gave. As I reflect, I question the authenticity of those friendships. It seems they were more about what they could gain from me, as now, the once-frequent contact has dwindled, and they don't bother to check in on me.

With Christmas and my birthday looming, the silence amplifies. I brace myself for the absence of any thoughtful gesture, realizing that perhaps those connections were never genuine. It's a stark reality to accept, and the loneliness feels palpable as I confront the likelihood that my generosity was merely a means for others to exploit.

Lollicupstore and supplies

 

Are you a start up restaurant, coffee shop, or some kind of eatery or some kind of special occasion and needing supplies like cups, spoons, plates, gloves, boba, syrups, and wanting to get a great deal on it? Check out Lollicupstore. 

They have everything you need. They have all kinds of supplies and more. You want to put your name on the cups, or plates or things and not sure how or where to go? Lollicupstore can do it. 

The prices that they charge are reasonable and they have all kinds of things. 

Shop now.

Russell Stover

 

Russell Stover is the only chocolate that I can eat that does not bother me like most chocolates. They are the best chocolate and just so enjoyable. 

Every bite just melts right in the mouth and is just delicious. I love Russell Stover and their products are so creamy that they just make you want to keep going back for more.

Get your Russell Stover chocolates here.

Self published books for sale on amazon

 I have a few books that I wrote for sell on amazon. Check them out! They are available in just about every country. There are Ebooks and paperback books. 

 https://amzn.to/47HtdGq -Mystery of Egar cartell (Detective story, mystery)

 https://amzn.to/3SOWmLs - The Story of the Underwood Typewriter (personification- objective perspective)

https://amzn.to/3R5mZua - Don't Scream, Tales to tell in the dark!!(short stories)

https://amzn.to/3sFp7iY - Powerful Freaks (science fiction -Sifi)

https://amzn.to/3sFld9W - 

Cosmic Hearts: A Space Cowboy's Odyssey (science fiction -Sifi)