Lovely Writes

Dealing with depression is hard along with anxiety. It gets to the point you don't know which way to go or what to do. It often gets so bad that nothing feels okay everything is your fault, your worthless, your no good, your nothing. Sometimes you don't want to be around anyone cause you hurt so bad and thoughts circle your mind repeatedly telling you to give in it's not worth it,  your not needed, your worthless and no one will miss you. It is tough to live with. Sometimes you are okay and others your not. Some days your perfectly fine and then at nights when you lay down to rest your up rocking and crying trying to cope trying your hardest to tell yourself your okay that your not worthless, that you are someone but at times the thoughts win and your crushed. Some people do not understand it. Some people will never understand but others have dealt and dealing with it trying to cope trying to help those around them before it's to late and they are no longer here. Some n...

Our anniversary Is today and I'm so excited!  We're been together for 3 years and married for 1 year!  We had many ups and downs that it tried to tear us apart. We been through a lot and we stayed together. I can't wait to See what our future holds.  The number one thing in a relationship is to talk about everything and not let anything stop you or get in your way work out then differences and keep pushing but If it's an abusive or a bad relationship to the point you feel weak, worthless and Hurt then leave break up with them don't stay because your scared leave go find someone and be happy don't stay in something your not wanted or you don't like! Your worth more than that!

When the gallbladder attacks it's no joke. I was pregnant with my second last year and it got worst but they wouldn't take it out till the middle of my pregnancy but because it didn't really act up as much then they didn't and when it did it was 3rd trimester and they couldn't.   At the beginning I had an ERCP and it's where they take a camera with a light and they crushed a gallstone and took it out in pieces because it was stuck in my duct. The doc had to put a pancreatic stent in because the dye kept running into it and I ended up having more pain and had to get a EDG done to remove it. Now almost 3 months after my pregnancy I'm still having attacks and suffering no matter what I do and how much I try to prevent it it still is happening but they won't take it out till it's infected or about to bust open.  It sends pains and shocks through the chest, abdomen and back along with the shoulder. Sometimes it feels like an heart attack or something mu...

( https://www.amazon.com/dp/B01FOQUUB8  - buy your copy here!) It’s a cold October day in Staten Island, New York. The wind blows through the trees. I’m on my way to the bar where we are having a family meeting. I enter the bar and I see Ronny, Jim and Bobby sitting there at the table waiting on the boss. They was sitting there talking about  their records and what they have been doing since the last time they was together. “So Ronny how is your family doing?” Asked Jim. “They are, doing fine.” Replied Ronny. “ We are only here to talk about the reason we are here. We aren’t here to talk about anything else, no family business, and that's the reason we are here and that's it!” Exclaims Bobby as he interrupts the two. “Jim,Ronny,Bobby there’s something I need for you to do for me” said someone from the corner. From the shadows of the bar a tall muscular Italian descent man dressed in black steps in the bar. The Boss. He sits at the edge of the tab...